realizing nothing.

Why do I feel so lost when i'm alone with my thoughts? It's like thinking, and re-thinking, and re-thinking.. and getting nothing out of it... perhaps only to get myself even more confused.

Now, it almost seems as if the end's nearing. But we never do give up, do we? There's always many many times when we think it's the end, but it ends up not being the end at all. Countless instances, no? Yes, I think so. I hope so. But it's certainly not going to be easy.
Having gotten the odac shirt, I dont know why, i'm once again bombarded w random thoughts. events aft events... and perhaps figuring out how immature we once were, but not knowing so.
And during math just now, it suddenly occured to me how I actually thought I was coping well and fine, but in fact I wasnt at all.. and I still am not. haha.
Wrong decisions right from the start maybe?

Its funnyhow fragmented one's thoughts can be..
and suddenly I feel this overwhelming urge to divulge everything, like seriously, EVERYTHING. But then, it's always that something which comes at the last minute, pulling me back. So it's just going to end as that...
Nights:)